She will be loved

Friday, Sept. 02, 2005

phuck it

I appreciate everyone’s advice, but I did it anyway. I emailed him. I’ve just been sitting here torturing myself all day, after doing it all week, and I need to stop it. I need a resolution because it’ll be so much worse over the weekend. Here are my scenarios:

  • He considered it a first date (although I think asking for such a big favor is a pretty awful idea for a date) and he didn’t feel a connection so he decided not to pursue anything further.

  • It was just one neighbor doing another a favor, just friends, and he didn’t think to respond, because he’s a guy.

  • He had been trying to find someone to help him get that dresser from IKEA for weeks. When he saw that first email from me, he got excited because he knew I had a bigger car, so the whole week of emailing was just a rouse to fool me into helping him get to the store. Now that he’s gotten what he needed, he has no use for me.

    Here’s the email (which I accidentally sent twice, dumbass, although he should be used to that from me):

    Hi Kent. How've you been? We haven't talked since IKEA, so I hope I didn't offend you with my swearing when we got lost. :)

    Some circumstances changed for me, so I ended up resubscribing with [site], to give it another try.

    So I saw you were online and decided to say hi. Oh yeah, and I've been smoke-free for two days. It's been surprisingly easy!

    Hope all is well with you.

    - Shoop

    Still fairly platonic, right? Is there really something so wrong with wanting to pursue a friendship from this guy?

    Whatever results from the email, at least I’ll have more of an idea of how he regards me. Good or bad, at least I’ll have some better clue of whether this guy is truly an asshole or just inconsiderate.

    posted at 3:31 PM

    Watching/Hearing/Listening to: typing, whispering, my fan
    Drinking: water with raspberry ice crystal lite
    Wearing: faded blue jeans, black short-sleeved shite, brown loafers

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