She will be loved
Monday, Oct. 10, 2005
scared
He called a couple of minutes ago and left a message. I'm scared to listen to it.Any way that he responds, I'm scared, whether it's positive or negative. I'm scared of the rejection, but I'm also scared of being with him. Not just because he's unattractive, but the thought of being with any guy is scary. Someone touching me scares me. I just can't imagine that might end.
I can't believed he called. He knows I hate the phone. Why didn't he email? I told him he should get AIM and we could talk that way.
I guess I need to stop torturing myself and listen to the damn thing.
Watching/Hearing/Listening to: I'd rather not say
Drinking: diet pepsi lime
Wearing: grey underwear, lime green tank, black athletic socks (sexy sexy, I know)